The Sweet Up and Down

I move on Saturday. I move to my own house with my fiancee and son. I am freakin' excited and am anxiously waiting for Saturday to get here so we can get our stuff into that house. I've been thinking a lot recently about growing up, having responsibilities and basically being an adult and whoever said that high school are the greatest years of your life is an idiot and needs to be shot. High school sucked compared to this moment in my life. (In all honesty, high school sucked period.)

I'm not a big fan of MySpace although I use it constantly and check it everyday because somehow MySpace always seems to draw drama and I am not a fan of drama because it's usually associated with someone else and I want to keep your drama away from me because drama is contagious. I'm proud of the few friends I have on MySpace and occasionally attempt to acquire more. Especially if they don't have a Facebook profile. From about July to August 2007 I was friends with this girl, Vanessa who was my ex-girlfriend's roommate. After she discovered I was friends with her Vanessa quickly deleted me and we both moved on. Well, I contacted her again because I like the girl. She was nice and I would listen to her life story which reads like a modern-day Dickens tale. She accepted my request and for a month everything was fine then inexplicably she deleted me again. No warning. No explanation. Nothing. I don't know what happened there but I figured two times your out. But when it happened my brain just kept asking "Why do you care?" And aside from the reason cited above, I had no other reason. I wasn't going to send a message asking why or anything but I found it very strange.

Also, way too many people are getting married and having babies. I keep forgetting that I have entered the prime marrying age but it still unnerves when I see someone I know getting married. Or, what I really hate, when I just discover it without being warned. I tend to handle change better when it's within my own spectrum but when it's change adjacent to me and I either have to deal with it or interact with it, I don't do so well. I guess what I'm saying is that I want things to change, I just want them to be gradual changes that don't amount to much right away. Or just ask me for my Change Request Form and I will email one to you. You can just fill it out and I will either approve or deny it.


The final Calvin and Hobbes strip always makes we long for the days of childhood but when I really think about it, "let's go exploring" is probably how Randy and I will end our time together if it should ever come to that and with kids, house stuff, work and family, there is no time for exploring and out of everything from my childhood, that is what I miss most of all but I'll get into that tomorrow.

~Brian

I Googled myself this morning. I wanted to see what was the first thing that came up about me. The first thing came up on page ten and was a link to my short stories on AuthSpot which is cool because those are things I could get paid for (which brings me to an advertisement: Read My Stuff). The next thing was my Blogger profile which was on page 15 or so. My name is a lot more common than I originally thought because there are quite a few people with my name out there. Search on MySpace and there are two in Lawrence alone with profiles. I also share a name with a member of Monty Python who passed away in 1997, an author who wrote The Saskiad and I Should Be Extremely Happy In Your Company and a lot of graphic designers and photographers. I only went 39 pages into what ends up being roughly 1,170 but you know as you get further the results just turn into pages that just happen to have my name in them but do not result in anything important.

I noticed the "writer's block" section of the home page asked "Which of your five senses could you live without?" How would you choose which to get rid of. You certainly wouldn't voluntarily give up sight or hearing but touch and taste would be equally tough to give up. Smell would more than likely be my choice mainly because it's one sense that I think I could live without although I would relunctantly give it up. I came to the conclusion that I couldn't live without sight or sound because those are what make the world beautiful. While olfactory senses gives us smells like roses, steaks cooking, gasoline and smoke it also gives us poop, burnt popcorn and burning rubber but it's your choice which sense to give up. I've made my choice and I stand by it.

Also, I ended my comic strip blog for a while as I focus more on writing for both money and for my LiveJournal (I want it to be something more) plus get more involved with packing and moving (which happens September 15th). The blog will be back on September 20th which is also the day we should be completely moved in so I am looking forward to that. I'm hoping to update my LJ more frequently and am considering using it to post drafts of stories I think of but am unable to flesh out until I get my mandatory two a month written. I have a couple doozies I've been itching to write so they may appear here pretty soon.

Until next time, I remain...
~Brian